Can't heal what you know to call normal. Grow in soil, that's poisoning you. She claimed you needed fixed, while standing in the valley that kept breaking you.yiu weren't the problem, the environment was. Waisting time, you were surviving conditions no one should have had to survive. Dealing with your hand never shown the exits . Now your seeing the terrain for what it really was and that realization alone is kind of a rebirth. Not weakness to say " I didn't know" a strength to see it