DAY TWO (July 2nd, 2024): Woke up today nd it was incredibly bright outside. X nd i ended up sleeping almost 12 hours so we woke up around 9am, pretty good night of sleep for us. When i woke up i was basically kicked outta the rv cuz he needed to change LOL, its okay, i got to sit outside nd see the scenery, feel the sun on my face, all good things, very peaceful and serene, once i got changed nd dad returned to camp from his walk around the alpaca farm, we got packed up to move locations. Since about 10 or maybe even 11am, we’ve been on the road… i love road trips simply bc i can lose myself in the music and pass time 10x faster. I statred a little vlog on top of this here “blog” so idk if im going to actually put the videos anywhere but it would be pretty cool to keep a log of our adventures. We’re urrently on our way to OHIO which is the second out of three states we will be in nd out of on this trip. We’re staying at a KOA somewehere in Ohio, shower’s nd regular bathrooms their so i can have some me time, thats one main thing i forget about going on these trips… i have NO ME ALONE TIME. I love love trips though, this time i actually get to enjoy it!! I wonder if i’ll be able to find a blog site for posting this… who knows. Will check back in later! 

3:37pm; i’ve been going through a breakup recently, theres a song that i considered “ours”, a few songs actually, as teenagers in love do, but slowly i can listen to that song “our” song without feeling heartloss again. Thats imporvement for me, even though i still hold out hope for us to reconnect and be us again. Unsure of how realistic that hope is though. A little hope never hut anyone, it gives me a reason to keep improving. I crave growth so much that sometimes its mrore harmful than helpful. I hope for certain things that aren’t realistically achievable. I could chalk it up to me being an almost 18 year old with a young teens mind but honestly thats just how i was raised. I’ve been raised with a lot of hope and love, for that i am eternally grateful to any and all forms of parental guidance i’ve experienced in my life thusfar. I love you all. Truly, and so deeply. All i want is to be happy and free, both at the same time if possible. If not then i choose happiness. I’ve fought for my happiness since i was a very young child and i’ve tasted it, i’ve brushed my fingers acrost the posibilities of genuine happiness, i feel as though i can deep dive into genuine peace and joy, i just need the freedom part of it too. I can’t be in love with happiness wihtout being in love with freedom.