Again, again, again. This was the 3rd night in a row I was having these... nightmares. It was sickening how much I enjoyed them. Is this really who I am? Do I enjoy the feeling of disloyalty? Maybe this was just me overthinking again. None of these fantasies mean anything as long as i don't let them take over. I might let them take over. What is stopping me from letting them take over? On one side