Finding out I had HIV was one of the most shocking news I had in my life. Praying to God and thinking that he would get me out soon was definitely an eye opener. What I looked at as defeat was really purpose brewing inside me. The random men I slept with if they only knew. I was undetectable so I guess that softens the blow. What is love without pain and what is life without experiences. We learn, we live, we grow, we see, we develope what's meant to be. Trusting in God to bring you through can be one of the hardest things to do. It's scary when your body starts to react in such a way, questions what's going on, on the inside. Will I be alright. I just wish it would be all over. But it's building me and making me into the person im meant to be. Never knew what can be a tragic event to some can be the birth of a breakthrough to others. It's all in how you see it.