You know what you want, you know what you have to do. Stop letting people who ain’t ready to do what needs to be done hold you back, you’ve always been ok by yourself and you will be ok if that what it leads to. But right now you can feel your body breaking down you can feel yourself growing weak and you continue to do the same dumb shit. GET IT TOGETHER!!!  Clean your house, lay off the bottle, get out and exercise. You spent all those years giving yourself to everybody else and now your throwing your life away your better than this, your better than what your allowing yourself to be. STAND UP AND CLAIM YOUR LIFE YOUR THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN DO IT. Take it back !!!