Oh please, hold me softly and caress my fur. I didn't mean to bite you, I was so stupid when I was younger. I hope you can forgive me. This post is about regret.

There came a time in my life when all I could do is question reality. Was this world real? Am I dreaming? Did I die and is this my hell? Over and over on repeat....I thought this can't be real stuff like this doesn't happen in real life. I mean sure you see stuff like this I'm movies but I'm real life no way.

I am alive after being gone from my practice for two months. While not stated in this, I could have moved near the lake but I could have still been living with my ex. Regardless, things weren't going the best here at home and in life. Also started a new job while working for my other one. This entry is the only entry for December.

Hello! Let me sit you down, have a cup of tea. I'll caress your shoulders with my fluffy paws as my warm breath that I cannot control hits the hair of your neck. I can't control it, for my comfort has it's cons and it's pros. You will feel comfortable for a little while, then the idea of a dog speaking to you will hit you as a brick hits a old man working on a house.

From here, each entry until 2024 gets choppy. In the other entries at some point, I barely talk about it though I was dealing with relationship problems, life, medical things, and more. From these two entries though, I discover a White Dapperling and it's getting colder. I also think that between these two, I got a car that I had.

Welcome to my space where I'll be sharing my journey of personal growth and mental wellness. This page is a platform for me to document my experiences and connect with others. I hope that by sharing my story, I can offer support and reduce stigma. My life has been full of challenges and triumphs, and I'm ready to open up about them. I believe that vulnerability is a strength, and I'm excited to embark on this new chapter with you all.

At 1:34 AM on April 18th, 2025, I have decided to write until I sleep. In this entry, I also talk about getting zero hours of sleep. I still continue to work on my Mabon wreath.

I decided to merge the last two entries of September all into one. This is also the last entry until October of 2023. In these two entries, it's Mabon talk plus some interactions with plants.

Easter, a time of renewal of rebirth and hope, of learning and living for as the sun returns with the summer warmth while winter fades for a while we celebrate all that Easter is. It doesn't matter what our beliefs are or how we celebrate for hope is the one thing we all find during this time of repentance, fasting, and feasting.

In this entry, I go to Marne Creek again, find some Bristlegrass and another Maple tree while working behind the scenes on a Mabon wreath.

cry over is a singular poem about the experience of a young girl choosing not to cry over a boy who changed his mind

"Embrace your uniqueness. Time is much too short to be living someone else's life." - Kobi Yamada I want to let anyone who needs to hear this know you ain't alone and I understand and care keep your head up and love yourself , you are enough, you are beautiful!

This poem explores the emotional journey of a child whose innocence is shattered by trauma. It begins with a depiction of purity and joy, then transitions into the harsh impact of pain and suffering. Despite the deep emotional scars, the poem emphasizes the quiet strength that grows through healing. It reflects on the silent battles survivors face, the resilience built from hardship, and ultimately, the transformation from victim to empowered individual. The closing stanzas suggest that while justice and peace may come, the memory and strength born from survival remain lasting and meaningful.

This entry combines three smaller entry (the last grouped entries, I think). These are also the three entries before my birthday so in these entries, I wrote randomly.

A heart may burn with passion, but it does not stop it from being put out. we can only grow from these trials, and watch ourselves grow and let those who have been with us or against us watch as we rise to the top

"I never realized how many people in this world are exactly the same and that they have lived this long; only to wake up one day to realize that they ignored themselves, gained everything they don't need and still have absolutely nothing...the last thing they realize is that it's too late." -JMC©2025

How did I realized I am transgender, more specifically non-binary? What does it feel like? What labels do I resonate with?

In a world driven by noise, distraction, and disconnection, it’s easy to forget that we were born with more than just physical senses. We were built with awareness—deep, natural intelligence that modern life has buried under technology, toxins, and social programming. But some of us never forgot. Some of us still feel everything. This letter is for the ones who remember… and for those beginning to remember now.

Your success isn’t just about hustle—it’s about who you’re hustling with. In this glow up guide, we’re diving into the power of your circle and why the people around you can make or break your dream life! From spotting draining energy to curating a confidence boosting crew, this read will help you align with friendships that match your magic. Who you surround yourself with matters! Choose wisely

MINDSET: The Greasy Gearbox of Your Brain (and How to Stop it From Grinding) Think of your mindset like the greasy gearbox of your brain. Sometimes it's smooth, shifting gears like a Formula One racer on a caffeine IV. Other times? It's clunky, rusty, and sounds like a dying badger trying to operate a cement mixer. That, my friends, is when your mindset is working AGAINST you.