A lovely night under the sun, can’t beat how many times you beat your meat, just for me to come home and I say ‘no’ to you. If it will be, then let matters be.

There’s this girl who’s scared to love again. A girl who was hurt in her part relationship. A girl who doesn’t trust anyone again. However, a guy…. A guy came and loved her slowly.

This is another old journal older journal entry I am posting now as I am not in the mood to write a new one.

It’s been a minute, but here is a fresh journal entry! I literally just finished writing this one, so the pain is very fresh and current this time.

Raj was once fully focused on career success, neglecting time with loved ones. A health scare involving his father brought him home, where he reconnected with his family and realized that life’s true value lies not in achievements, but in meaningful relationships and shared moments. This experience changed his outlook—he began prioritizing love, presence, and connection over ambition.

I am here was written for a special someone. Someone who didn’t have think they could find another way! But had more will in her pinky that the entire world had combined!

It was a hard life that my siblings and I went through. We had some of the darkest days as kids but we were taught by our Maw to never give up, to keep going, and to always look for the positive in anyone or any situation.

Relationships are not easy I know by example. It’s like no matter what you do the opposite sex is never happy. Never satisfied u can lay your life down on the line and it still wouldn’t be enough.

Finding true love doesn't mean head diving into a relationship and hurting yourself to be with them.

Family trauma can be a silent burden, often hidden behind closed doors and masked by everyday smiles. It's the weight of unspoken words, unresolved conflicts, and generational pain that seeps into our lives in subtle yet profound ways. This trauma can shape our relationships, self-perception, and even our parenting styles, often without us realizing it.

How I survived a covert narcissistic relationship and how I moved on. They can cause trauma and abuse. If you need help there are hotlines I've included for help.

Covert Narcissist are very dangerous. They can cause trauma and abuse. Here are some signs that I noticed when it was too late.

Be careful of where you talk about this person their will be large groups of flies for no discernable reason.

TWO questions and answers today because they were so short: DEAR ASK A PUNK - My girlfriend and I are breaking up. Who gets the dog? She brought it home originally, but he's pretty much mine. I walk and feed and take him to the vet when I'm home. I think she only wants him because she know's it is pissing me off. …Michael & DEAR ASK A PUNK - I'm an LA chick who enjoyed heavy metal but mostly country music in high school. How can I relate to punks? If I happen to be next to one randomly somewhere, what is a good conversation starter? I pride myself on being able to relate to lots of different people but am a bit stumped on this one. Your advice would be helpful. ...Karen (Answers inside)

Another previously written entry (I am trying to clear out older ones before they lose meaning in the context of my current situation) focusing on the selfish feelings I have while trying to be supportive.

This one is for the people who give and give—thinking maybe one day it’ll be enough. Until they realize it never was about being enough.

Music was how we used to love each other.
Now it’s how I know he’s gone—even when he swears he’s still here.

I never thought I’d become a stranger in my own relationship.
But this is the truth I’ve kept quiet—until now.

Oh, how loving me can be so hard. No matter what you do I'll fall apart. Like a wilted flower, I sit there rotting away. So hold me gently, until I fade away.

Love or fondness? Can a person be with someone when there is no love? Do people settle even when there is no passion ?