I'm a very deep thinker and I have schizophrenia supposedly and now it's gone bipolar but how many times do we have to question ourselves before we find ourselves to be someone who knows what we're doing exactly to the extent that we don't have to ask anyone for help I don't have to ask anyone for help but I prefer to have help and I need advice but the only advice I seem to be able to find is my thoughts so how many times should a 36 year old with a bad history of past think that she really knows exactly what she should do I'm stuck in a pause because of this illness that I have but such things have made me wonder about all kinds of knowledges. Since I live on information and understanding I've come to understand that what you own owns you back because you have to maintain it but is there some kind of law that we have to treat each other like this? When is the right time to say that we need to practice kindness beyond everything?