Shame on the system that looked down on me, treating me with such indifference, and gas lighting me to think I was a hypochondriac that wanted attention. I was not looking for anything like that. I was looking for answers.

*why am I tired all the time?

*Why am I in pain everyday?

*Why is it so hard for me to concentrate, and spell when language arts is my favorite subject?

*Why can't I work more than 4 hours without getting exhausted in every way, form, and fashion?

*Why can't I sleep well at night, but extremely lethargic throughout the day?

*Why won't anyone listen to me?

*Am I crazy? Or can I feel the doubt coming off of them?

I went through so many doctors to find out what was wrong. Gastroenterologist, Neurologist, Psychologist, Psychiatrist, Cardiologist, Dermatologist, Rheumatologist, anyone who would listen.

I had doctor, nurses, and staff laughing in my face about not being able to move my body. I could not go to college because as soon as I stood, I felt so sick that I stayed in bed all day. I doubted myself... I started to belittle my symptoms of feeling extremely fatigued and dizzy. So tired that I contemplate on how much longer I can continue to live like this. Sleep takes over my life. I was called lazy as a kid growing up. Even my family doubted me.