Depression, it's something that's inside of you in the bones of your very body there nestled deep inside. Invading your very blood cells, Invading your thoughts toying with your mind playing havoc on you once called your mind. Your heart is filled with darkness your emotions soaked in pain, the illness spreads through your body now it has consumed your body. Your body betrays you making you pull away from everyone that is trying to help. Even though on the inside you are screaming, screaming for help, for someone to hold you and tell you everything is alright and that they will never let go of you. But your body gets tired, tired of fight with the demons that have locked you in this cycle. The cycle of pretending to be happy, to have hope, to have true joy.. Sure you can laugh and smile and make everyone around you think that ok but on the inside, your still screaming for someone to notice that your not completely alright. Your screaming for the help that you probably wont get until you are so deep down in it. That you have given up the fight with the demons or rather dig yourself out. You want to see the light that everyone else seems to see. And you yourself have not seen in 4 years not for very long anyway. You see glimmers of it. But that's all it is glimmers telling yourself that people do have that joy in there lives. That they have hope for the future and all you hope for is to make another day that is all you can ask of yourself. And for right now that's enough. Your enough.