Following the burnout comes the freeze. This entry conducts a forensic audit of the "Apathetic Hell"—a state of "adamantine" (unbreakable) indecision. It explores the "incapacitating cell" where the self is trapped between "inertial insouciance" and the desperate need for movement. It documents the "alchemic machinations" required to mobilize the will against the "flagitious verity" of stagnation.

Adamantine Ambiguity

Adamantine ambiguity is attritional—this is my Apathetic Hell.

Nonchalantly earned and arbitrational.

Inertial insouciance, an incapacitating cell.

Impetuous inactions repeated:

Invidious imprisonment of abilities;

Exploited by insecurity—defeated.

Ennui enervating all mentalities.

Emotional eruptions admonished refrain,

Encapsulated an exemplar of equanimity.

Contrarious fallacy of inadequacy by disdain,

An Anathema for all in my proximity.

Flagitious verity imagined misinterpretation,

Insidiously empathizing with myself;

The mendacity allowed in my indifferent representation,

Insufferable infliction, abject to the shelf.

Exposed perpetual perplexity with no relief

In the antidotes for such a tribulation.

Such anachronistic, irrefutable disbelief

In unattached immoral negotiation.

Awakened, awaiting in anxious anticipation.

End of abstinence from my association.

Acumen achieved by alchemic machinations.

Mobilize to ameliorate my aspirations—

My abysmal abjection to animation

Is blithe without abnegation.

Lexicon

Adamantine: Unbreakable; diamond-hard.

Attritional: Relating to a gradual reduction in strength or effectiveness.

Insouciance: Casual lack of concern.

Invidious: Likely to arouse or incur resentment or anger.

Anathema: Something or someone that one vehemently dislikes.

Flagitious: Criminal; villainous.

Mendacity: Untruthfulness.

Ameliorate: To make (something bad) better.

Abnegation: The act of renouncing or rejecting something.