From the very beginning, have you ever thought of me as anything more than a meaning to the end. A part of me wishes I knew how these last 6 years would have ended. Maybe if I knew we'd end up as strangers I wouldn't have tried so hard to get your attention.

So for context, I met this girl let's call her Haley. She was your typical good girl, always did homework on time and has loads of friends. We met through mutual friends and later found out we had the same math class together, we had many things in common. Or so i thought, we talked about everything from books, music, even about life. We spent countless nights staying up late and just talking. You'd think this would end up as a cute romance story i bet. Well sorry its not, but i did catch feeling and fast. I never felt like i could ever tell her how i felt. Didn't wanna ruin the relationship, you know?

The thing about her was that, she always had a boyfriend. Every year of high school, it seemed like she couldn't go a day without one. Well there might have been a year she was single, that year felt like i was just a place holder. I don't blame her thought, I had no boundaries all i wanted was to be something to her. Whether or not, I was someone significant or not. I just wanted to be by her side. I even took up hobbies i normally wouldn't, I took better care of my grades. I did everything to become a better version of myself. We joined this club our last couple years of high school, I had some great memories of those years. But in all honesty I only joined cause of her. I wanted to spend more time with her, even after classes we'd spend time at the mall or just talk on the phone.