I think when you lose your boundaries you lose parts of yourself

There are missing shards in the mirror

And not enough water for a puddle of reflection

Do the droplets hit your skin when it rains?

Do you feel it dig through your fingertips when it snows?

Or is your body encompassed with the memory

Of others 

Other hands, mouths, tongues

Is that all you can feel, when it's all you do?

Let people who are not you choose for you

People who do not know you

Let alone care about you

Do 

What

They

Want 

To

You. 

Is it a ritual you find yourself to be the sacrifice in?

What God would be pleased with fragile meat like yourself?

You have always been hunted by wolves 

And it will stay that way

Because you will not change

Dare to stand up. You can’t.

Your legs scramble together

Like sticks to start a fire

Burning, engulfing, and consuming your entire being.

To submit, even when you don’t want to. 

Submit, even if that sick thrill they promise never comes

Submit, because that is all you know

That is the only thing that makes this real

And if this isn’t it,

What is?

Questions are no good.

They rattle the brain and strangle the heart

Why is it harder to breathe

Without someone's foot on your neck?

Are you too used to it now?

Do you feel safer with a hand cradled around your throat?

Threatening to tighten

Each blood riddled vein if even a sound

Comes out of you

Is it home? 

On the inside. Yes.

Of course it is.

It is the wood crackling in the fireplace

It is a fridge and pantry full of food

It is your pillow, cold, on both sides

You are home now.

No one ever really leaves home. 

Your defense is guarded up

For all the wrong reasons

“They didn’t mean it” Did they?

“I was asking for it” Were you?

“You’re reading too much into it”

Oh. And you’re not?

The paint on your fence is peeling

Chipping away, slowly, carefully

Like what you do to your lips

When your nervous and think no one is watching

They know, that you know, that they know

Stop looking and start listening

To the branches that break when you try to run

To the leaves that rustle with each step

To the sound of my voice

Because I am predator

And you are prey

But you made me do this

So despite everything

You believe and trust

And bow down to me as the victim

Not the other way around

How can I harm someone who was never really there?

When you lose your boundaries

You lose yourself