I thought of you today but not in the way that you might think I thought of you and smiled in the mirror, then gave myself a wink I told myself I wouldn't do this when I thought of you Yet here I am, thinking of you again, not knowing what to do I thought of how we're not together, though I really want to be I thought of how the smile and wink were as fake as fake can be I thought about the time we've spent and how special it really was I thought of how you like me but not really as no one ever really does I thought of how the idea of me or someone who cares so much is great Yet no one really wants that if they think they'll have to wait I thought of ways to let you go, and the answer just isn't there My hope is that you'll think of me and know that I do care.