Christmas 1979, I barely remember it but here I am smiling in my winter coat in front of a Christmas display window at one of the store at the Cross County Mall in Yonkers, NY. The Christmas season used to be so joyous and filled with wonder. When did this end? Was it when my mom told me that there wasn’t a Santa Claus or when I graduated high school? I graduated in June 1993. My first daughter arrived June 1996, so her first Christmas was a lot of fun and quite memorable. Christmas 1993: drunk at a party Christmas 1994: drunk and having sex with girlfriend Christmas Eve 1995: drunk and living with girlfriend /eventual becomes my first wife(definitely sex) Christmas 1997: divorced and a full time dad to my first daughter Christmas 1998: dad mode and single Christmas 1999: alas! I had a new finance and wife to be come January 1st, 2000 and this marriage would last til June 2017. Four more children later, many Christmases.