If I lived to be 83 and he lived to be 96, the amount of time I had with him now until then wasn't enough for me. My heart hurts knowing no amount of time will ever be enough for me to have with him. We are apart more than we are together, his choice, he keeps walking away after being together a day or 2, week the most. Why do I love him this much? I fell in love with my husband after the first night we were together.