Sitting behind church one cold morning with my black lab named buddy while snow was pouring down on us is when I finally realized how bad my life had gotten after my abusive and narcissistic fiance of 9 years was arrested for allegedly murdering an 88 year old helpless man for no reason whatsoever it would have been acceptable because I know that man would never cause anyone harm or nor would he want to see anyone suffer in any way. Drugs have ruled her life and made me powerless.