I woke up and the world is spinning

Is this an end or a beginning? 

Am I losing? Or am I winning? 

I fell asleep with tears on my cheeks

I woke up with this terrible heat.

Anger is brewing deep inside me.

I can't seem to stop this flood of emotion.

Suddenly I'm drowning in a dark ocean. 

There is no stopping what's set in motion. 

I'm trying, to fix something so broken, 

Not broken at all, the words never spoken. 

Never having received that verbal token. 

I should be grateful, for what little I've got

But it's not enough, is always my thought.

Bear with me, in this game I'm self taught. 

I had it down, I could follow it in my sleep.

Then it changed, opened boxes dug deep.

To watch something we never could be. 

Written September 2016