Still young, yet I feel this need to catch up with everything and everyone around me.
Adulting comes, yet I have no idea what that is. Where do you start? How? They never taught these things in school.
When you graduate from college, the first thing you do is look for the job you've been preparing for over the years, some for almost their whole lives. Send out resumes, maybe move out. When you graduate, you already have these simple things planned out in your head, or at least they've crossed your mind. But what about the young adults who had to postpone college and save up more money because being an international student is too expensive, so you have to wait for residency to get some benefits? Is it okay to jumpstart their dream life before they continue their academia? Is that okay? Or am I asking for too much? Am I too delusional to think I c ould do it before they even hand me my diploma?
But who cares, right? Everyone can judge me, but I'm a selective listener.
The thing Is, I believe I can do it, however scary it is. Even though I have a few or more failures waiting for me down the road, I'll get past them. At this point, I'm willing to give everything I've got to achieve the life that I want.
When I was younger, I didn't really know what my priorities should be. I knew I had to finish my studies no matter what. When I would ask my friends or others what their top priority was, some would say their family, and whenever I got that kind of answer, I would always have this strange feeling, maybe a guilt knowing deep down that even if I try to put my family on top, it's really just not what I want, and I was only trying to get some validation. As I grew, I realized that it's okay not to have the same priorities as others. It's not something you should feel guilty about. We prioritize things or people we know are best for us. 
- Myself
- Career
- Family
Myself
- Childhood and teenage years have taught me that you'll always have yourself, no matter how hard you pray to God to be saved by someone else. God will give you no one but yourself. He tends to believe thatwe can do it no matter what, which is a little bit annoying sometimes. Prioritizing myself comes with prioritizing my mental health and well-being. Being selfish is not always bad. I'd rather hurt myself than get hurt by others.
Career
- I believe that my career is my only way to contentment, at least for now. As someone who feels like losing in a race, a career is the only path I want to take right now. And no, it's not the money-kind-of-career, it's more of a passion-art-fun-something-I-will-not-regret-kind-of-career. I was never a rational person. My grandma told me to apply to a hospital or something like that since it pays more, but I chose to disregard it. Life is already hard and lonely, and it gets less fun every day. I don't want to make it less than it already is by doing something I don't like.
Family
- Family comes third, and if you'd asked me this a few years back, I'd be guilty for putting them third. My family is part of my responsibility, but that's just it—they're only part of it. Having them third doesn't mean I'm neglecting them. They're part of my priorities, and that means they get benefits from my top two priorities. Not everyone has the privilege to choose their passion as their career. I too sometimes think I don't have that, but I believe everyone has a choice. My family and I didn't come with a silver spoon, but I choose not to dwell on it and aim for a successful life on my own terms. I don't want to be the kind of person who lets themselves be a slave to money—not that I'm invalidating them; like I said, everyone has a choice depending on their circumstances. Some will let themselves be slaves to money and eventually get out of it to pursue their happiness. Some just decide to live with it for the rest of their lives. Some would always choose what makes their art light up, and I would like to include myself in that group.
What about you? What are your priorities? Are you happy with it?