The day I once loved you,

and you didn't love me back,

it felt like a boulder sitting heavy on my chest.

But now that we are older,

the tables have turned—

you love me now,

but I don't know if I can love you back.My heart holds no one anymore.

I feel no love for anyone,

not like the warmth I once had.

Now, I am just cold.

You are angry all the time,

and I know it’s only a matter of time

before that anger turns on me.

Maybe then, the friction will make me warm.

But that isn't right.So I try, and I try,

to love you, to love us.

But the truth slips out in the details—

I hate your friends,

I hate your hands.

It isn’t your fault that I am this way,

so let me just speak the truth:

I am broken, and I cannot be fixed.Maybe that is why we get along.

We are both hurting, both fractured in the dark.

Maybe you are hoping I will be the one to fix you.

But I can't.

I cannot even fix myself.