Growing up, many things were thrown my way and a good percentage of those things were painful to go through. Through my life I had a horrible dad and a heartbroken mother. I put myself into questionable positions to make things okay and sure enough... that didn't work. From having anxiety attacks about leaving the house, to going to school and begging my mom on the phone in the bathroom stall to pick me up because everything was simply too much. I got onto medicine and I felt invincible. I was having fun at school and working more than 40 plus hours at a job as junior in high school and making decently good grades still. I put my dad in jail, got into a relationship and I was comparing my life to the girls at school that had everything and the girls on my phone screen showing their 5:00 am morning routines. I also learned late in my life that my life is Not based on social media or how one or maybe even hundreds of people may feel about me. I wish I knew it earlier but I do not dwell as much because I am worried about me and how I am doing. I got out of a toxic relationship with someone who I should have never even liked and I learned how to know when I am being respected or used. I got into a new relationship and even just recently got married to the man of my dreams. I grew into going to church with my husband and learning more about Jesus and I know that I could not have gotten as far as I have in this moment without GOD and my husband. Thank you for taking the time to read this I know this is kind of a note vomit but I am wanting to expand my experiences as a writer and I would love your feedback thank you!