Lately I don't know how to feel, yet I feel all these different emotions. Like one minute I feel like I'm ready to take on everything. And the next I feel like just curling into a ball and running far away. I want to smile and embrace everything. But another part of me wants to just disappear. No matter how much I move it's like I'm going backwards. I'm an adult, been one for a while now. I try to act strong, but even if it's been 6 years now I'm still that same kid deep down. We never stop growing and changing. We always have things to learn, mistakes to correct. I'm trying to my best but it seems like it's not enough. I'm breaking my back, my body aches everywhere. I beg for a nap that could last 100 years. Some call me strong, but there's no way in hell I'm as strong as they think. I break, I been breaking. Im begging for an end to this pain. But feelings are good, it helps me know I'm alive.