… I wasn’t procrastinating when my mom told me to clean my room , i found an old picture of you… (us) and for i dont know how long i sat there… looking at it. Thinking , til everything in the backround; the noise of an old A.C , the footsteps of people walking thru the house, the laughing and yelling and talking of my siblings in the other room… my mind drinfted into what felt like peace and acceptance that you were gone but the picture… it was like a portal back to the past i lived us all over agin for 30 minutes. I lived the moment when i first met you i lived the fights we had about minor stuff , i lived the times we told eachother our problems… i lived it all my eyes slowly reagined is Conscience, i wish it hadn’t but slowly uncontrollably it did, my ears hearing the noise agin like i came back up for air after being underwater i was aware of everything around me i slowly ran my fingers over it almsot in my way of saying good by for now to you i put it in a book i probably wont pick up to read just for when i miss you and i know where you are and ill never lose you.

December 31, 2025 @ 8:30 pm 

sincerely yours- vanie