Okay so let me just start by saying that knowing what I know now, I would have definitely made a much smarter decision. Nonetheless, I chose and alas, here we are. So, I can't even describe what even initially attracted me. It was a mix between complacency and timing I guess. At first this person was funny and sweet and seemed like a nice and genuine person. Today I would say something more along the lines of liar, manipulative, stubborn, fake, vindictive, evil, psychopath. I don't know take your pick. I've never dealt with someone like this before and they've done so much over the years to try and blame shift and make me feel like my intuition which I knew was throwing up red flags, was wrong when come to find out it was right on point almost every time. They tried to attack my self esteem anytime I wanted to talk about any of the problems that kept arising. Eventually I got to the point that I just was numb to that bullshit*t. Like I didn't sign up for this sh*t. Not at all. What happened to the person I couldn't wait to see? The person I couldn't spend enough time with. The person who I'd just see their pictures or hear their laugh and I was happy. Now I find myself seriously wanting to just run away and change my number and disappear from this bs. I don't need some asshole who goes out of his way to cast doubt in my mind. Someone who pours their time and energy into everyone else and never me. Someone who treats everyone else with the most respect and dignity even if they've done nothing for him and then when I've done everything for them I get treated like garbage almost all the time. It's not fair and it's really a bunch of bs. If I try to leave he threatens my life and anything I care about. Which I only care about like my kids and that's it. So, you do the math. Okay and maybe I'm crazy or something because I take the weird situations and I might just run with the idea of why things are the way they are. However, I don't think I'm usually wrong when it all comes down to it. Like I wake up and we're staying with some people currently and this maf*cka stayed up way past when I went to bed and then I find the salt lamp from the dining room moved onto the far kitchen counter by the garage door. The lamp is also covered or blocked by a box of ramen he moved in front of it. In my mind I think he moved it over there for the purpose of having light to sneak around with the other girl who's here. There have been subtle remarks and signs and unnecessary looks between the two and then a few hours later this girl stops right by that door and throws a look back at him and I turn around and catch it and she immediately scurries off. Like wtf. Am I crazy or am I making things into what I feel like hey are and see them to be? Anybody else experience anything similar?