I miss being ignorant

I wish I never opened my eyes and saw how much pain I’ve endured

I thought that everything was fine and that the flowers weren’t blooming simply because it wasn’t their time

I realize now that there was no sun for them to grow

I realized the flowers were drowning in the shadow that had been casted

I survived trauma after trauma and never thought anything of it

But now I see how tired it made me

My flowers have slowly been wilting away while I sat ignorant of it all

My bones ache and my eyes feel heavy

I finally see what I’ve survived and I see how week it made me

My garden once full of potential is now a graveyard of what could have been

But maybe now that I see it

I can reach for the sun