The late nights

The late nights, staying up all night with so much on your mind, yet feeling like nothing is there, is the most difficult. The empty thoughts have you sitting up all night. You don't know what you are thinking, but you are thinking about something. The late nights up all night thinking about everything in your life and how you wish things could have gone differently. Yet they didn't. And you are now sitting up all night wishing you hadn't made certain life choices. Wishing you didn't fall in love with certain people. Wishing that your parents were different people. All of those things that you wish are keeping you awake all night, almost every night. You lose sleep the more you think about certain things. The late-night questions you ask yourself. The late nights when you question who you are. The late nights in your head. The thoughts that keep you awake. Wishing you could just close your eyes and go to sleep, but for some odd reason, the thoughts in your head won't go quiet. It's like they are the loudest late at night. And that is because they are the only sound in the darkness of the late nights you stay awake. There isn't a single sound except maybe the sound of the wind or maybe the sound of the structure in which you live. Or maybe if you live with other people, the sound of them snoring. Or maybe there isn't a single sound. And when there isn't a single sound, that's when those thoughts get so loud. It's like they are screaming to be heard. Those nights when you lose sleep. Those late nights are the worst.