I have always put my faith in all the wrong places. I suffer from anxiety and PTSD. For years I would self-medicate with alcohol. I struggled with alcohol for years. Going out for one drink would turn into an 8 to 12 drink night. All I was doing was trying to escape the reality that I lived in every day. Things I have seen and experienced, they would come back to haunt me. They kept me awake at night.