The best way to summarize how my life has impacted me is at 12 I was learning to live without trying to cut my life short, 14 I was learning who I was who I could be, 15 I learned what loss was and then, at 17 I have to figure out how to live, how to exist after losing so much. My younger sister will forever view me as the girl in the room and the older as the childhood that ended at 15 the innocence