My mindset as I maintain responsibility of my own life is unsteady. I haven't ever paid my own way or taken care of myself. There has always been someone to lean on, usually more that one person even. Anxiety is creeping in on me as I anticipate the fall of my unsuccessful attempt to rise above the dirt I came from. Why am I setting myself up for failure? Why can't I believe that I can count on myself? How do I change my own perception and vision of myself? I need to look at where I've been so I can refocus where I am going.