I desire to write and so I was told to simply do that. But it does not feel that simple. There are so many words and each one changes the story so therefore there are many stories. So what do I write? Fiction? Reality? What makes the difference? And where do I begin? The start? Or the end? And what makes the difference? Fiction versus reality is hard to judge. Beginning versus the end can be easier. They say to start at the start, but if you start at the end does that not make it the start? I could continue to voice these dilemmas I have found but instead I shall try and tell a story. For that, I need a beginning, I'll use a famous one. "Once upon a time" but wait, what does "a time" mean? Before or after me? Is there a before or after? Once again I'm plagued with unanswerable questions. They are answerable though. Wether the answers are to satisfaction is different. For me I suppose no answer could satisfy as every question comes with it's own questions and paradoxes.

I'd also like to note that every word I write changes the reality of this story and thus changes the reality of the reader, then the people the reader interacts with and so on until it has effected everything and everyone in the universe and the incomprehensible beyond - so incomprehensible on cannot comprehend the lack of compression. This lack is then squared until the end of everything, but of course, I cannot comprehend that end or if there even is one.

Let me try the story one last time.

Once upon a time there was a writer. One one who could bend what is real and what is fake by simply understanding their lack of understanding of what reality and fiction where and are. This writer knew that they knew nothing and so they wrote hoping to understand. Writing brought them closer and further from what they sought and as they wrote they realized there was something, something they could not understand. Something just at the edge of their vision. Something real and something fake. Something that they could never begin, and yet were so close, to understanding.