There were days where I couldn't look at myself in the mirror and say one nice things about myself. There were days when I could look in the mirror at all. There were days where I didn't get out of bed and shut my phone off completely. People invite me to do these fun things with them and I just turn them down because I didn't want anyone to see how much I have gone downhill. I was scared of who I become. I got tired of scrolling through websites and seeing all these models and pointing out everything I could've had. my family tries to help but I push them away. my friends try to help but I push them away too. I felt empty. I wanted to get better. I just felt like I had no motivation. And one day I was laying in bed and my little brother came up to me and said "I miss the old you." That's what made me want to get better. I finally realized how I wasn't only affecting myself but also the people around me who care. That same day I got in the shower and took a walk and looked around and saw all the beautiful things I was missing out on in life. The Flowers had bloomed into pretty colors. Kids playing games in their front yard. A park full of energetic dogs with grateful owners. People driving by, singing to the music on the radio. Life is beautiful. When I went back home I ran straight to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and said 5 positive things about myself and 3 good things about life. It took me a few weeks to begin to believe these things but it was all worth it. The 5 positive things were, I am loved, I am beautiful, I am worthy, I am enough, and I will get better. I have the strength to better myself. And I keep myself motivated everyday by telling myself I got this and saying the 5 positive things about myself. I know we all have our breaking points, but just know you are capable of getting better. It might take some time but I know you got this. if I can do it, so can you. my name is izabella and I am a survivor.