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The Mirror



Not just a reflection of 

my appearance,

but a reflection

of me.



Of my eyes–

smeared mascara,

running down,

blurry vision

from what I did

with that one guy.

the silence of regret

is heavy,

and real,

and there,

staring back at me.

Of my lips–

curved up with a smile

the whole day,

but now too tired

to hold itself up,

exhaling,

sharp,

shaky breaths,

thick with the

aroma of vodka.

Of my outfit–

it’s cute, I guess.

but somehow

all my cutest outfits

always

end up

off.

Of my stomach,

that people say

has a baby in it.

they call me

whore,

slut,

hoe.

and the mirror

agrees with them.

The mirror,

a reflection

of me–

my 

face,

body,

life

It knows

everything–

secrets

that I hide,

but still spill out.

feelings I ignore

but bubble up

in my stomach

and explode,

like a can of soda

shaken a little too hard

I look at myself,

but i don't see myself.

I'm the girl who’s

scared of boys,

a rule follower,

teacher’s pet,

Right?

I see not her,

but a corrupted monster,

stuck In 

a 15-year old girl’s

body.

a body that

isn't mine,

but theirs.

What happened?

Threats, 

rumors,

whispers

in the hallways,

lots of eyes

on me

five years ago,

nobody would even look

in my direction.

Now,

they’ve looked at every 

crevice,

curve,

part

of 

me,

dissected it

until

all that's left is

vacant space.

Others,

who haven't touched my skin

but have ripped apart

my reputation–

at school,

at home,

everywhere



I look in the mirror,

i’m composed now,

standing straight,

but the mirror knows.

it knows.

it's a front.

it knows

about where i was

last night–

locked in a room

with a guy

i'm not even dating,

drunk,

naked,

stupid.



It’s funny–

i feel less alone

staring at my own reflection,

in my bathroom,

at 3 a.m.,

than in a crowd of people

who don't know me,

but know of me,

of what i've done

or what they've heard

i've done.



They make jokes

to my face,

behind my back.

but the biggest joke isn't

their words.

but the reflection

in the glass.



She isn’t me,

but she is.

and she’s staring straight

back at me,

reminding me

who I truly am.

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