Life without no money is painful especially as a women no job skills nobody push me enough instead they where bringing me down dumbing me down too a point it almost made me really crazy I was stuck in that house for 20 years it wasn’t one of them houses u could invite everyone too no water no toothpaste no soap sometimes even no food sometimes just pain nd sleeping eating my misery away too I die no friends cause I didn’t tolerate nonsense nothing but a verbally abusive narcissist that told me everyday I’ll never amount too anything I’m a bitch not human want me to be disabled so they could benefit off me but I didn’t care cause my heart is so enlarged I wanted too be everyone’s hero I just thought they would save me as well💔 the living style I lived was hard nobody could be in my shoes seeing roaches every day being called horrible things stealing too make the pain go away I’m not all the way innocent I have done some fuck up things but I wasn’t in reality I was stuck in my own head but there’s no excuse nd that’s how they wanted me too be but this strange noise in my head always told me too never give up always have hope 💕

my papa always made it better nd when he die everything went too shit school was always the worse for me cause people didn’t like the fact I was real nd didn’t take bs so they outcasted me just like my family that’s when I started doing poetry writing stuff down 6th grade is when ik I had a nice voice my passion has always been singing r&b I just didn’t believe in myself I was so brainwashed u would think I was disabled but I was just lost traumatized nd it got even worser over the years 💯

I didn’t go too my 12th grade year at school i was too busy helping my sister raise her kids nd getting high it made me realize I could rap as well nd so much mess nd lesson I learned for my sister never have kids lol 😂 they are a blessing but child they are a hand full I starting hanging out with my cuz more as well i learned a lot from them as well how truly embarrassing we are too them how we are know as the family that’s not clean or have a nice house when really we was all depressed granny raised everyone in that house she never got too live nd I wasn’t the first generation so much bs has happen too her hard work of a house too da point she turned cold nd on top of that she has too raise everyone else kids she just tired but with wicked ways don’t we all tho I’m not perfect myself but I love my family so much that I pushed my self too be more serious about what I want too do in life I wanted out of this hell I want too be the first person in Little Rock too go big I want the fame so bad the spotlight the stage the fans nd nothing but my pain nd everyone feeling the words the melody 🎶 I know it’s a lot but what if I told u it will come true I prayed too the legends too teach me how too rap nd sing better I prayed too God nd it came true I just need a start recognization but all I get is more pain

but you thought this was bad i didn’t see my papa for a year I saw him for da the first time nd he left the next day eveyday I would sit outside nd look at the ground that he stood on from my house nd it still hurt too this day atleast I got one last hug it breaks me how I couldn’t go too his funeral couldn’t even say my goodbye that’s when my anger came I star punching nd stealing more from people I care bout even my granny too make myself feel better ❤️‍🩹

i almost try too die it didn’t work I’m too protected God needs me here for a reason my head just keep saying that I’m here for reason all this pain isn’t In vain nd then I meet who I thought would be the love of my life chuck the boy next door.💔