i am sorry but i can't do it anymore. im going to do my best. absolute best. to explain this in the best way possible. ive had days to think about it but i feel ive always known the answer. i dont trust you. i dont trust you because of a lot of shit. 1. and again i see this shit and i've told you before. you are sneaky this not answering me but being in snap shot is annoying as fuck. you don't actually care. you're hurting me and i'm actually getting tired of feeling this way. military or not my ex talked to me more than you do. there's truthfully only one thing you wanted from me and you got it now you're backing away. ive noticed it from the jump. ive shouldve known sooner. i hate myself for allowing you in my life. i hate myself iverall. i never gotten so attached i mean this attached to someone in years and i just gave myself up that fast. thats fucking fast. im hurt. im sorry but im just done. i havent been able to actually communicate for a while. you got a lot out of me more than anyone ever has. you understand and if not understand at least listen. you found me at my weakest moment. you helped me pull myself back together. then i lost myself again. and none of it is your fault. i lost myself because instead of focusing on what i was when i first met you i worried about everything else. i'm sorry for losing myself from time to time again. people go through it. I wish I could just show you the real me.