I wrote this poem trying to describe how an unfortunate scenario caused someone I felt like I loved more than anything to fall for someone else and in that cause a chain reaction for me to have to settle for someone that wasn't her, but because of it I'd become broken, to broken to love someone, but also to broken to be able to be in a situation to ever be with her again even after she realized that who she chose over wasn't who she wanted. I'm still pretty young so I know it's probably bad but I figured this is a good way to vent.

Nobody talks about it. You have started your family. You have grown your family. You have finished your family...but your heart is never done. Praying that "because I had a thought" pregnancy test is negative but broken when it is...

My Heart knew what it Wanted, but not what it Needed, and now that My Heart has what it Needs, it can hardly Believe It.

Welcome! I am a step and Bio parent and my journey feels anything but normal my first Note is about a few things I've run into and an intro to the beginning of it all. Pop on in and take a look at this hotmess express.

This is another journal entry I failed to publish in a timely fashion. Though the extreme emotions I portray in this particular entry have somewhat lessened, they are nonetheless a persistent feeling.

Blake, consumed by a love with Ethan, believed he could heal Ethan’s pain. Their relationship, marked by passion and despair, spiraled into a beautiful decay, leaving Blake empty and drowning in love’s poison.

A lovely night under the sun, can’t beat how many times you beat your meat, just for me to come home and I say ‘no’ to you. If it will be, then let matters be.

There’s this girl who’s scared to love again. A girl who was hurt in her part relationship. A girl who doesn’t trust anyone again. However, a guy…. A guy came and loved her slowly.

This is another old journal older journal entry I am posting now as I am not in the mood to write a new one.

It’s been a minute, but here is a fresh journal entry! I literally just finished writing this one, so the pain is very fresh and current this time.

Raj was once fully focused on career success, neglecting time with loved ones. A health scare involving his father brought him home, where he reconnected with his family and realized that life’s true value lies not in achievements, but in meaningful relationships and shared moments. This experience changed his outlook—he began prioritizing love, presence, and connection over ambition.

I am here was written for a special someone. Someone who didn’t have think they could find another way! But had more will in her pinky that the entire world had combined!

Relationships are not easy I know by example. It’s like no matter what you do the opposite sex is never happy. Never satisfied u can lay your life down on the line and it still wouldn’t be enough.

Finding true love doesn't mean head diving into a relationship and hurting yourself to be with them.

Family trauma can be a silent burden, often hidden behind closed doors and masked by everyday smiles. It's the weight of unspoken words, unresolved conflicts, and generational pain that seeps into our lives in subtle yet profound ways. This trauma can shape our relationships, self-perception, and even our parenting styles, often without us realizing it.

How I survived a covert narcissistic relationship and how I moved on. They can cause trauma and abuse. If you need help there are hotlines I've included for help.

Covert Narcissist are very dangerous. They can cause trauma and abuse. Here are some signs that I noticed when it was too late.

Be careful of where you talk about this person their will be large groups of flies for no discernable reason.

TWO questions and answers today because they were so short: DEAR ASK A PUNK - My girlfriend and I are breaking up. Who gets the dog? She brought it home originally, but he's pretty much mine. I walk and feed and take him to the vet when I'm home. I think she only wants him because she know's it is pissing me off. …Michael & DEAR ASK A PUNK - I'm an LA chick who enjoyed heavy metal but mostly country music in high school. How can I relate to punks? If I happen to be next to one randomly somewhere, what is a good conversation starter? I pride myself on being able to relate to lots of different people but am a bit stumped on this one. Your advice would be helpful. ...Karen (Answers inside)

Another previously written entry (I am trying to clear out older ones before they lose meaning in the context of my current situation) focusing on the selfish feelings I have while trying to be supportive.