The Borken side of Love. the weeping, the darkness, the emptiness, the myriad of questions, the whys

i dont know if this is a question ,opinion,wonder or whatever it might be. i find myself weirdly, socially awkward but i am an extrovert naturally. example, i could be around a group of people if they are younger than me i am not really interested but around older people i feel so comfortable and i can talk for hours. any experience? whats your take? any question? whats your opinion?