They called me deep like it's a bad thing. Doesn't that make them shallow. Anyone can swim on the surface, heck you can doggy paddle or do a back float. It's more comfortable I'll give you that. The thing is nobody grows in comfort, you gotta dive in, go deep. That's where the treasure is. I almost died so many times before I ever really had a chance to live. Covid almost did me in, 3 months consistently getting worse each day. My husband couldn't wake me up for 3 days. It turned into pneumonia and I got so bad I woke him up near the end of those 3 months and told him to take me to the ER, I couldn’t do it anymore. We both had this eerie gut feeling if I went to the hospital I wouldn't be leaving there alive. He refused to take me, he told me to fight one more day. The next day I got a call that a old family friend passed away. She was my age & had a daughter too, I cried wondering how I deserved to live more than her. I heard my husband & daughter laughing and imagined them w/o me