TRIGGER WARNING: ABUSE AND SEXUAL ABUSE my moms ex-husband started abusing me when I was 3 and the sexual abuse started when I was 4. it went on for years and even after he went to jail the things he said and did to me stuck in my head for years to come. I'm still trying to heal from them all. I never got my closure or justice he didn't go to jail for what he did to me. I wrote this and posted this back in 2021. when I lost my virginity its like this wall I built up in my mind as a kid came crashing down and all the memories came flooding through of everything he did to me. I wrote this to help me to heal. my family had their suspicions but when I shared what I wrote reality hit them, he had hurt me as well. I hate him with everything in me and I may never get my closure or justice but I wont let him have this hold over me anymore. so like I said I hate him but I forgive him.

everyone has a caged heart at some point in their lives and its hard to heal from all of the pain and trama it has been through. caging it up and locking the door is the only way to keep it safe so we thought. sometimes the right person comes along and they stick around to help heal our hearts and unlocks the cage. its okay to let them in.

This is an inside look at the girl your talking to. I struggle to put things into words sometimes so I try to write the best that I can. I wrote this piece to help others kind of understand the girl they are talking to a little bit more.