I don't know what to say about this poem. I guess it's me realizing I could have done better. I regret many of the choices I made. But I have profound empathy for her. I forgive her - for not knowing what she didn't know.
Well meaning people often respond in strange ways. Rude, uneducated and clueless people often respond the same. It's really hard to tell the two apart.
This is a story of a girl who was made to play a game she didn't know and didn't want to learn. Unfortunately, a pursuit of (dis)Pleasure. Sanity or death - that's what she would say.