(Just a character description for now, sorry!) Shelly was a beige Shell girl who loved dinosaurs! Just your average neighborhood.. left out... Forgotten toon... that's right, up until now She's seems too sad to even go out of her room, nobody likes her, or at least she thought nobody liked her with how they've been treating her (Please go check out the Dandy's World game on Roblox to really get it, Also, Shout out to BlushCrunch studios for making the game!) C=Cosmo S=Shelly ?=Unknown

Welcome! I am a step and Bio parent and my journey feels anything but normal my first Note is about a few things I've run into and an intro to the beginning of it all. Pop on in and take a look at this hotmess express.

"..being misunderstood is an immediate sentence to mental and emotional chaotic turmoil." I'm not stronger. .. I'm just more afraid.

This is what it was like for me growing up. In the time of my childhood, Autism was nothing more than Nonverbal with No Eye Contact.

longing with uncertainty for an estranged identity within myself, aching for a graceful return though its banishment was imposed.

my poem of a fragmented, incantatory piece tracing the fool’s dance on the edge of self-destruction, referencing tarot archetypes and an exploration into the rawness of identity and turmoil.

My perspective as a young girl. It prompts contemplation about the meaning of life not only of me but for everyone? and it raises the question of why we are inclined to think so deeply about these existential matters.

A Story of Emotional Trauma, not at all for the Faint of Heart; an Inside Peek at the Turmoils of Depression

A mute person speaking her truth her words of sadness. It’s the beginning of her story. A sadness that’s hard to look at

Mom, I know you loved me, even if it didn’t always feel soft or safe. You gave what you could, but I needed more—comfort, emotional connection, and to feel held without having to earn it. Now that I’m a mom, I see how easy it is to repeat what we grew up with. But I’m choosing differently—not out of blame, but out of love. I want my kids to feel seen and safe in ways I didn’t always. This isn’t about rewriting the past—it’s about healing it, for me, for them, and maybe even a little for you.

“Healing is a Spiritual Journey” is a poem born from the sacred spaces between pain and peace. It explores the tender, often unseen path we walk when we choose to face our wounds with grace. Healing isn’t linear—it’s layered, deeply personal, and often spiritual. Through each verse, I wanted to express how healing calls us inward: to reconnect with our spirit, reclaim our voice, and rediscover our worth. This poem is a reminder that even in our most broken places, there is light—and that light lives within us.

When you go to far, what remains? Can you go back to who you were? Or are you changed forever? Doomed to be an incomplete version of a broken you.

Friendship or more? Perhaps, perhaps not. This one took about two hours. From midnight until 2:19am. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

THE COURAGE TO STAY Why do you choose to fight rather than succumb to a battle with life when the end is in sight

What's "wrong" with me? Years ago, I figured out my biggest self created obstacles. They say the first step is identifying the problem. The problem is me. Do you identify with anything written here? Maybe something here will trigger realization for you.

I did some research during my sophomore year of college on socialization and the importance for children to receive it. I wrote a paper on what I found out and what I found most important to know. Socialization is very important for a child’s development. Children's brains are like sponges, sensitive to the environment and are affected by things easily. What they see and learn can impact them greatly.

As some may know, the brain has two hemispheres. The left and right hemisphere communicate with each other to work the brain cognitively. Though, what happens when the brain is split in half and that connection between the two hemispheres is no longer there. How does the person still have their cognitive function? The information provided will cover the basics of split brain patients, how they function, and studies done on them.

Finding true love doesn't mean head diving into a relationship and hurting yourself to be with them.

Today can be the first day to the rest of your life. Be you, do what you want to do, travel, go sightseeing. Whatever you want to do take that leap of faith and do it. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, success is built on failures. You have to see the cup as half full, the universe won't line itself up for you, you have to make it that way. Make the best out of a bad situation and get yourself out of it. Nobody is perfect. Nobody is even expecting you to be perfect. Just always do your best and good will always follow you.

Healing is possible You can make beauty from your ashes Life is a journey You can do it Don’t give up