A raw and deeply personal memoir written to my three sons: Isaiah, Elijah, and Zechariah. This piece reflects on motherhood, trauma, addiction, grief, accountability, spiritual awakening, and breaking generational cycles of abuse. It is an honest apology, a testament to healing, and a declaration that the cycle ends here. Centered on kindness, forgiveness, and self-worth, this story is about transformation, redemption, and the hope of rebuilding love with the men my boys have become.