Complicated Heart, Restless Mind, Trauma Survivor, Tortured Soul. He fights his demons daily to be an honorable man. Boundless Love, Life Passions,

Surrounded by Darkness, Holding onto the Light. Constant Darkness in my Head, Makes Light Feel like Dread. But you Never know what's Missing, If you've Never been Kissing.

Smile no time for tears, Smile no time to hear. Smile through the pain, Smile through the insane. Smile in their face, Smile in their place.

Sudden tightness in my stomach, slowly increasing pain climbing inside of me. There is a sharp, stabbing feeling in my chest like someone is squeezing all the life from my heart. I'm gasping for air as if I am suffocating from an imaginary bag being held over my head. As I sit here slowly dying, I notice that no one around me has any idea of what is going on. They sit and talk about upcoming events, and laugh about old memories of how far they have come over the years. I'm right beside them screaming, " Help me! Can't you hear me?! Grab my hand! Rip this bag off of me! Help me! Don't you see me dying?!" and no one changes pace, no one even looks in my direction. I then noticed the screaming is in my head, my lips have not moved a muscle.....

I would give my life to protect the one I love, and I feel he would do the same. I place my life in his hands, trusting him to keep me safe. I never worry or fear of possible dangers that surround us on a daily basis when he is with me. I never doubt him to protect the lives of my children, even when I am not in the area. The only thing I fear, and try to protect from him is my heart. How can I trust someone so completely, and not completely at the same time?

Warm smile, Addictive laugh, Calming touch, Loving embrace, A painting of Confidence and Strength. Leader among the pack. Shield of Protection for the innocent. Do you see the Pain? Do you hear the screams? Do you feel the chills of fear?

Not to brag, or shame myself, but having sex was not a new adventure, so what I experienced completely caught me off guard! This one encounter solidified that this man was created to give me endless, and unmeasurable love!....and possibly pain.